I can hardly believe that Lucas starts sixth grade this week! I have not kept up with this blog in part. Because I am not very good about talking about myself. I feel like I am complaining when I share our struggles. I know that there have been milestones achieved and successes too. I needed the reminder of how hard far we've come from November 2011. My sister started this blog to keep family and friends informed of our situation in the hospital. It was her way of working through the details and the emotions of the time. Since then, there have been a lot of ups and downs with Lucas and I find myself trying to reconcile the battles of today with that time.
Lucas has ADHD. He struggles with school and social relationships. He is on an IEP and in special education. some of the comorbities tied with ADHD are there - rejection sensitivity disorder, he is oppositional at times. We have struggled with his peers and even adults accepting his quirks. He is pretty self focused and struggles with sympathy- but can also be very caring at times.
We are in the full swing of puberty and he is almost as tall as me. Last year was the year of braces, introduction of anxiety meds and growing like a weed. So many normal things happening mixed in with the ever present reminders that Lucas is neurodivergent. Camp was a struggle, just like school and daycare always has been. He is so wise and also so immature- it is a very confounding balance!
It's hard to explain on bad days to others how blessed we are he is here. I love my son more than anything. He is my greatest joy and frustration and love.
